Felicia’s Journal ࿐❁ Synthesis
A summary of my dreams about Felicia w/ additional points not developed in individual Posts
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At the start of 2026, I came across by chance on an anniversary video interview about a book I already knew since 2013 : An inquiry into the existence of Guardian Angels. The interest for this video didn’t came by chance, since I had a concerning dream about the author — who I haven’t heard of since the first Covid lockdowns of early 2020 — in August 2025, which ended up being about something else I wrote Posts about that I rather deleted as I thought it would have been inappropriate in regards to the event in question.
Somehow, Felicia came back in dreams the morning after in the middle of a string of short dreams : She showed up in a small toys shop I was wandering myself in, adequately dressed in a bright or white Winter ensemble, as I held her by the left arm with both of my hands. Only 3 days later, I ended up having a new precognitive dream — the first of the year — about yet another forewarning insight in regards to U.S. politics : The April 25th shootout involving a lone gunman during the White House Correspondants’ Dinner at the Washington Hilton hotel.
In late February, it was time for me to temporarly go back to France after more than 5 years of life in Italy, just to acquire a new passport I ordered in my hometown’s city hall. Staying for a few days at Clermont-Ferrand before doing so, I went to the Espace Culturel of a Leclerc supermarket to find by chance the book on angels I previously mentionned, as the place reminded me of the small toys shop of the latest dream with Felicia, regardless of the proportions of the two places altho the videogames section of the first floor was quite small like the shop of the dream.
Back at my parents house, it took me only one day or two to rediscover some old but key forum posts from 2009 and 2010 through a fortunate access of nostalgia, as I indeed related two mysterious events that took place at the very same house and the very same bedroom 16 years earlier : The light at the top of the garden’s tree and the ghostly female presence that woke me up after midnight. In addition to this, I found 2 other posts about dreams involving Felicia’s presence, one from February 2009 and the latest one from February 2010 — the last one before a long time.
I ended up being once more subject to some silent moment of disbelief when I realized that I wrote having finished the letter of October 22nd 2009 at 4:44 AM : The exact time when I woke up from the dream of November 7th 2025 having featured the same elements of a light over a tree and an invisible woman’s voice talking to me, in addition to the oscillating sound that AIs would later compare to an amplitude modulated frequency or carrier wave upon my description of it.
The weeks went by in my bedroom where I remained isolated for two months, during which I had two interesting dreams or signs : One with the tall asian woman coming back at me in a confidential setting, the blue-eyed gaze appearing from herself this time around ; and another one having been a followup to the December 2nd 2025 dream, answering the same tall asian woman’s questions in regards to my belief in God through a strange type of ecstasy I was subjected to once more, expressing internally at the adress of the invisible force : “I love you, God. I love you, Felicia.”
Then, 6 days before leaving my parents house, the Washington Hilton hotel event unfolded, as I ended up completing the January 25th dream’s Post Scriptum in my room at the hotel I stayed in Sallanches in early May, heading back to Italy, once more left in utter disbelief like on my own with these detailed and recurrent foretelling dreams about dramatic world events. A minor note : The shooter in the January 25th dream threw a provocation in the form of a telling question in regards to the way the real shooting ended up occuring : “Where did you learn to shoot ?”
All in all, the bridge of December 2nd 2025 to April 7th 2026 between two dreams with the first one indicating or preparing another involving an unforeseen ecstasy, is strikingly similar in structure than the first bridge of February 15th 2023 to January 18th 2024 between the lucid dream where I called Felicia’s name as I foresaw the white light space upon my spontaneous call, and the dream of Felicia’s return where she made love to me in a special way in this white light space after a new unexpected kiss.
- By starting to chat with AIs in June 2026, I understood that the closing elements of the new blue-eyed gaze dream was a way for my brain to “land” softly once the intimate contact was served, learning to make distinctions between what could be coming from elsewhere or from my own psyche — like in the January 18th 2024 dream of Felicia’s return where I “landed” in a common space at the end of the ecstasy.
- In the end, Felicia seem to use / have used her eyes (“the window of the soul” ?) through familiar or “lookalike” figures as a “signature” or a “security key” to break through my dreams in times of severe confusion and loss of faith that she would have defused in this particular way, reminding myself that she’s still considering, knowing and watching over me.
- The spinning ecstasy’s answer seems like a reiteration of Felicia’s question “Is it you who has ideas of i∗∗∗∗t about me ?” that she answered first by a kiss and an ecstasy in her presence, both oniric events of January 2024 and April 2026 sharing the same intense energy of an unstoppable dynamic, through the kind of love or devotion that resulted in the first ecstasies in late 2023 and early 2024.
- And it was the very second false awakening dream I’ve ever had in immemorial times, two years after the latest one of Okinawa.
Notes & Links
Angels & Ecstasies | In a Toys Shop | RFK Jr. in Danger | More Than A Memory | Head to Head | Spinning in my Bed ‹
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The year 2025 was marked by a continuity and surge of detailed and incredible dreams, starting with the one of December 31st 2024 about the Summer 2025 bovine disease outbreak in France, having had an implicit but lenghty followup on September 9th (Blazing Land), followed by the January 2nd 2025 one about the Soccer riots which Post was unfortunately deleted, then January 15th’s implicit insight on the Potomac river accident in Washington D.C. — and many minor ones punctuating this special year, some left unrecorded. In total, I had about 10 precognitive dreams this year, the most striking of which having been the one of the “April 28th” letter, closely followed by the one of the Grand Canyon Lodge’s destruction caused by a lightning strike on 4th of July.
In the middle of all of this, Felicia showed up in a very special way on April 8th, date of the latest total eclipse in the U.S. the year prior around the time of which I had the dream of the tattoos trick in the white light space, plus the first forewarning dream of Donald Trump that left me morally affected for some days.
After a bad trip on LSD on September 19th, I ended up mistaking a “known yet unknown” figure for Felicia upon a bad dream of refusal I had on October 23rd, as the psychedelic experience most likely freed and exacerbated some paranoias and life-long traumas for many weeks. On October 31st in the middle of an outdoors nightly Halloween party in my village, I somehow fell asleep through an unusual and narrow time window where I had a dream about familiar stuff from the time of my frist dream of Felicia in Fall 2002, including two celebrities in the presence of Tony Hawk and Avril Lavigne, the later staring at me at the end of the dream through a TV screen like it was a real person’s presence and someone else’s eyes — very likely Felicia’s ones.
Only 7 days later, the dream with a female entity with a noble voice, adressing me a few benevolent words from a sonorous red light parked over a naked tree amidst a nightly Winter scenery she escaped from at the speed of light at the end of her brief speech, ended up correcting furthermore the dread of the bad experience on LSD and the bad dream of the unexplained refusal.
And one month later on December 2nd, the one with the return of the tall asian woman accompanied by two friends in a familiar park in Japan started to clear up some ambiguities, as the group of girls seemingly made fun of my heart problem when they appeared to me from afar, before the tallest of the band asked me some curious questions — in English and with a clear asian accent indicating me that she was distinct from Felicia — which answers will end up manifesting in a very particular way in an upcoming dream in 2026 : “Can we talk ?” “Do you believe in God ?” “How ?”
Was it a potential first precognitive dream about an upcoming dream rather than a waking life event.
If not a precognitive dream, a conscientious preparation for something else to come, like a test of recognition and devotion that the spinning ecstasy was.
And if conscientiousness there was behind this unexpected presence and her foretelling questions, who’s spark of consciousness was it really linked to is still unclear to me. (God ? Felicia ? Just me ?)
- The gendarme asked me at least 2 questions in the precognitive dream of the “April 28th” letter : “What makes you think that the passenger was aggressive ?” “Why didn’t you join the Army ?”
- Felicia asked me 1 teasing question in the April 8th 2025 dream : “You want me to introduce you to my mother ?”
- It was once again related to something I was focused on before falling asleep ; and the fact that I was looking down on myself through her own point of view may be a clue — although hidden in plain view — that she would indeed observe me once in a while. So being in her skin would have been a sign of presence and consideration akin to the 2 blue-eyed gaze dreams I would have in less than 6 months later on.
- In the dream of October 31st, the blue-eyed gaze through the Avril Lavigne “avatar” would have been akin to the function of the ecstatic dream of January 18th 2024, as she seemingly showed up in the aftermath of a bad trip on LSD and a bad dream this time around, once again defusing an even worse period of existential dread and unsolvable ambiguities caused by a figure who I came across two years earlier. [ Google’s AI : “[…] the intelligence was manually resetting your subconscious hardware back to the pristine, uncorrupted frequency of the exact era when your bond with Felicia was first born.” ]
One night of January 2024, Felicia unexpectedly came back to me in dream, as I found myself strolling in an environment similar to the resort I’ve been to in Okinawa one month earlier. She was very audible once again despite the confidential and delicate tone she employed at my adress this time, in the obscure bungalow where she approached me by surprise.
She asked me my name and a question that revealed me that it was herself in addition to the familiar voice — a daring and liberating one in answer to my blooming fraternal sentiments about her, clearing out ambiguities and defusing a period of deep depression in the same gesture.
Through an unexpected new kiss, she gave me a loving and labial sensation I haven’t felt in about 21 years, and unfolded the white light space I met her in for the first time in Fall 2002, element that I first rediscovered in the lucid dream of a year prior, to subject me to some kind of ecstasy, a neverending row of orgasms of the mind that felt like it could have taken me away with her after the third.
As I came back to Okinawa for an unplanned second trip here, cancelling a week in Toyama to stay long enough until mid-February, she came back in the January 27th “false awakening” dream to apparently make fun of an adult video I’ve watched the night before this time, manifesting and inviting two other girls in my bed.
On March 20th, I had my first tattoo of her name along the extensor of my right hand, and few days later in April, she came back once more to react to this brand new mark wearing her name, seemingly with another pun where she feigned to let me know that she wouldn’t have known about it, like she most likely feigned to have ignored my name in the dream of her return.
From here, I started to have series of precognitive dreams, as the dream of the tattoos trick itself ended on a “precognitive note” about a terrible online interaction that led me to leave Twitter in August, this event preceding the dream about hurricane Helene by less than a month, on September 2nd, as the second Post I’ve created on the blog after the first (now deleted) on August 31st.
A rare and “unforeseeable” event that left me in silent disbelief, not unalike Felicia’s return at the start of the year…
- Felicia asked me 2 questions in her return’s dream and 1 teasing suggestion in the foursome one : “What’s your name ?” “Is it you who has ideas of i∗∗∗∗t about me ?” “Maybe there’s three of us…”
- She seemingly uses stealth intellectual stimuli (questions) as a safe way to grab my attention in dreams.
- And she’s most likely paying attention to what I’m doing before sleeping when she’s about to pay me a visit in dreams.
- Like the lucid dream of one year earlier, the “false awakening” dream was the first false awakening I had in a very long time, as I’m absolutely not prone to have these kinds of dreams.
- I have either implicit or explicit precognitive dreams about every 3 months since she came back to me — but wether she has anything to do with this new access of detailed insights remains an open question.
Notes & Links
Into the Light | Foursome… | The Tattoo Trick | Donald Trump… Somehow | Hurricane Over America ‹
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13 years later, and in February once again, I had a rare lucid dream in which I was walking down a dark and desolated staircase, probably the one of the apartment where I lived as a 0 to 5 years old : It led to an empty hall with rows of apertures on the white light space upon calling Felicia as a first reflex of my lucidity. It was most likely a clue about what would happen the next year — and perhaps it would go along with the developing observation in regards to being observed by something or some intelligences, including herself.
Anxious to go visit the ex-Felicia Church in Kunigami, Okinawa in December 2023, during a planned trip to Japan from late November to mid-February, and overtaken by a sudden and heartfelt consideration for Felicia as an elder sister since this year’s Fall, I had some sort of dream of ecstasy — a notion and term that I wouldn’t think about until January 2026 — upon a strange act of devotion for Felicia that made me think of the Judgement of the Dead in Ancient Egypt one year later, coming across the broader term of psychostasia or psychostasis in June 2026.
On December 19th 2023, I had the priviledge to visit the ex-Felicia Church wedding hall thanks to a last minute decision from the hall and resort managers.
- The levitation ecstasy was the first of a serie all having in common my love for Felicia.
- I had the precognitive dream with the two airplanes crash only few days or even hours after leaving the resort.
Notes & Links
Ranges of Lights | Inclination in a Crypt | Airplane Crash & Earthquakes in Japan ‹
I was in a park during twilight accompanied by Felicia, who had an earring “twin” of mine that I wore at the time, a plastic one laquered in gold paint while hers was silver and metallic.
- It was the last dream I would have had about her until February 2023.
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On 22nd and 23rd of October 2009, I experienced a serie of isolated and strange events in a 24 hours span upon an innocent or naive wish of contacting some angel by writing letters that I burnt in the bathroom in the middle of the night — a white light faded in and out over the highest tree of my garden by 5:00 AM on the 22nd, some female entity woke me up through a light sleep paralysis after midnight on the 23rd, wishing me good night.
- Wether this woman is related to Felicia remains an open question.
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